well.. now just sitting infront of the com with my smart 4..
going to eat dinner soon and going to pasir ris mrt there by 9pm.. soon will be back in tekong again hahas..
heard some bad news from my friend.. although they said its rumour.. my heart still aches...
if she really did that.. den i've trusted the wrong girl all the time... im so stupid... haha...
what else can i do now? but laugh at my own stupidity... i still cant forget her and i still feel the pain over the lost..
i feel as if im being pushed to the limits sometimes.. my heart pumping so hard that sometimes i felt as if im going to do something stupid for that few second..
why... does it hurt so badly..
Ben says (7:21 PM):
so what if you try going after ur ex again and get her back
you think you gonna get her back cos she loves you ?
wrong.
its gonna be out of pityt
Ben says (7:21 PM):
and then she gonna do stunt again
because rememebr she is the one who can severe the ties
she hold the control
why you wanna put ur self as the victim
as a guy you must always be the control
not the victim
Ben says (7:22 PM):
always remember we can take shit because we give shit to others
Ben says (7:22 PM):
i know you think its so harsh but thats how it GOES BOY
Ben says (7:22 PM):
ya i saw ur fb la you too nice or wat right
aiya mag
i used to think like you
in fact sometimes every now and then
Ben says (7:23 PM):
i still feel like you
its because we were brought up and taught to love and respect our siginificant other
hence we wanna give nothing but the best to them
end up you dont want to do anythign to offend them
but this world is a harsh one mag
Ben says (7:24 PM):
grab ur kevlar vest and man up.
gonna take alot of bullets in the heart and still keep firing ur sperms
thanks ben i know... but im just.. sighs.. i will take note of wat u said and keep reminding myself...
anyway abt the bad news:
Ben says (7:11 PM):
yeah mag anyway those were rumours
just thought you should know
Yc`` says (7:11 PM):
from who man?
Ben says (7:12 PM):
apparently word got around
that during this wine tasting class
she drank 2 glasses and then puked
and they found her resting in another guy's arms at one of the class
that day lama told us
Anyway.. i've to be strong.. this coming week in tekong is going to be xiong.. have to do SOC and other strenuous activities.. cant afford to let my emotions take a grip on me..
too much lately....
我很累。。
但我知道没有人会来帮我的。。
无论如何我只能靠自己。。
sighs just finish packing my stuffs..
packing for BMT is so troublesome.. so many things...
anyway met yvonne earlier in the day.. thanks alot.. im very happy.. i hope there will be more outings..
alright i need to get some rest soon..
tmr will be back to tekong!..
2weeks confinement.. how great haha.. lets pray for the best :)
mhmm.. have to meet camp mates for steamboat dinner later at chinatown.. but im still feeling fatigue and kinda lazy oh no! hahaa.. nevertheless still have to get my ass out later.. looks like the previous months of not sleeping properly is starting to have its effects on me..
anyway was talking to zn and benson..
zen. says (3:24 PM):
yayy
food is here..
and it looks like it's gonna pour, again.
simple me - says (3:25 PM):
=s arg i hate rainy weathers
zen. says (3:25 PM):
=\
erh yc
how's your ant farm
heard from zh, its wtf
simple me - says (3:25 PM):
still doing well i think
LOL
zen. says (3:25 PM):
hahaha
KaIto^- says (3:25 PM):
full of ants?
simple me - says (3:25 PM):
the one in the CD one haven fully develop
still underground
zen. says (3:26 PM):
so long?
simple me - says (3:26 PM):
ya
maybe they weak, nt sure must wait and see how
not all the queens will survive
KaIto^- says (3:26 PM):
the other one above ground le?
simple me - says (3:26 PM):
the one in the tank ya
zen. says (3:26 PM):
huh
queen can go above meh
zen. says (3:27 PM):
i only know colony will stay as long as the queen is around
KaIto^- says (3:27 PM):
then wad they do? look for food ah
zen. says (3:27 PM):
how do you manage to keep the worker ants from moving out of the tank?
you use oil?
queen just stay in the soil to lay eggs, normally too heavy to move?
simple me - says (3:27 PM):
ya
queen just stay below
zen. says (3:28 PM):
the worker ants will look for food, bring it back, dead leaves they will use saliva to grow fungi for food also, and feed it
KaIto^- says (3:28 PM):
then they wun climb out?
simple me - says (3:28 PM):
lmao last time got once i put mealworm the queen scare come out and bite the worm abit
anyway red ant is stronger actually
KaIto^- says (3:29 PM):
wtf?
simple me - says (3:29 PM):
this army ants nt really good at fighting against ants i realize. they are more of scavengers
KaIto^- says (3:29 PM):
HAHAHAHAHAA
simple me - says (3:29 PM):
and biting pple only
KaIto^- says (3:29 PM):
how u stop them from climbing out of the container
zen. says (3:29 PM):
lol
use oil to dap around the sides?
simple me - says (3:29 PM):
nope they wont leave
as long as the area is big enuff
simple me - says (3:30 PM):
and the queen is inside
zen. says (3:30 PM):
ooh okie
simple me - says (3:30 PM):
they will stay with the queen
but if the queen die
zen. says (3:30 PM):
i thought they will wander around
KaIto^- says (3:30 PM):
wah sounds fun
simple me - says (3:30 PM):
the colony can just die over night
zen. says (3:30 PM):
yc
you need to be engineer
KaIto^- says (3:30 PM):
ahahaha
simple me - says (3:30 PM):
lol wtf
zen. says (3:30 PM):
civil is good for you
crazy ideas
but works
simple me - says (3:30 PM):
hahahahaha serious?
zen. says (3:30 PM):
i can foresee your works on tv, discovery
'Megastructures'
zen. says (3:31 PM):
you think back
similj
last time make your own fish tank filter
simple me - says (3:31 PM):
LOL
zen. says (3:31 PM):
out of bottles and tubings
wtf
simple me - says (3:31 PM):
building stuff is different man lol
KaIto^- says (3:31 PM):
HAHAHA
zen. says (3:31 PM):
at least you got the drive
and really
simple me - says (3:31 PM):
hahahaha
zen. says (3:31 PM):
they need people with crazy ideas
zen. says (3:32 PM):
those who think big and out of this world
thats what makes it special
KaIto^- says (3:32 PM):
he shld join discovery leh
mor for him
simple me - says (3:32 PM):
hahahahaha
too bad dun have studies on ants
or wat
zen. says (3:32 PM):
he should be
simple me - says (3:32 PM):
sg too small
zen. says (3:32 PM):
myth busters
simple me - says (3:32 PM):
LOL!
zen. says (3:32 PM):
since he likes to blow up stuffs
zen. says (3:33 PM):
but i think myths he will turn it all into fact
simple me - says (3:33 PM):
hahahahaha!! last time i got think abt those leh but no course on it
KaIto^- says (3:33 PM):
Goh Yang Chun , on Man Vs Wild
zen. says (3:33 PM):
crazy ideas
simple me - says (3:33 PM):
LMAO
simple me - says (3:34 PM):
u guys making me laugh sia.. but well civil sim also dun provide sia
sian
simple me - says (3:35 PM):
benson nt going sim ?
zen. says (3:35 PM):
lol
zen. says (3:36 PM):
brb lunch!
lols thanks guys.. that sure was funny and motivating.. i almost thought of giving up.. as no one seem to support me on it..
i cant believe i slept early last night.. first night of 2010 man.. lol..
well i was suppose to meet the guys in town.. but i had to join my family for dinner.. cause it had been awhile since i really properly ate with them.. the past months i was really crazy.. we had seafood at turf city's ahyat..
oh well.. anyway after dinner i was feeling quite tired.. so well i went back and rest..
anyway last night as i slept on my bed.. it felt as if i haven slept on it for ages.. becos yeah the past 2mths i haven been sleeping at the normal hours.. or i haven been sleeping..
but still i still have those dreams.. and waking up feeling super fatigue and restless..
好累。。 maybe i need to try sleeping pills or drinking some alcohol before i sleep if this problem still persist..
