just gt home..
my life really isnt complete without my other half.. someone whom i've vowed to myself to be with forever...
promises are just words.. yes i know.. they are meant to be brokened by one or another..
yes im getting over it.. im moving on.. but i cant stop these suddenly heartaches from errupting in my heart.. they feels like muscle cramps.. and everytime u breathe the pain seem to be worst..
i saw the florist which i got my last roses for her.. and the night after which she broke up with me..
today they had great beautiful roses..
went out for some air.. came back.. walking thru the cooridoor of the mall and the song "Sorry seems to be the hardest word" started playing.. haha.. why cant it be other songs thats on air at that precise moment?..
why am i so weak..
i wana give myself a slap.. but will that wake me up? i doubt so.. give myself more time k..
i feel so tired.. feel like just sleeping now..
but no i have to attend 2 events later...
hextic hextic.. i enjoyed those peaceful days with her.. but oh well.. simple life only happens in fairytales.. the real world is hextic, cruel and realisitc...
痛。。
POC LOH!! hahahas..
finally completed BMT.. no longer a stupid REC!!
now a PTE!! hahas.. to those who completed BMT the first round its like nothing but mine has a long story to tell lols..
at least i completed wat i started with and wanted to acomplished..
im proud of myself.. cause i never chao keng to escape this recourse.. although i did thought of having a relaxing period before i ORD.. but well im eager to finish this stupid bmt and get out of REC life!..
now im like all other normal man out there been thru all the basic trainings.. im glad :).. not so ashamed to face people and tell them im a REC in army.. at least now i can get a LCP..
thou not a 2LT or SGT but so wat.. at least i completed my share of NS without any chao keng, MC or wat..
im proud =)
weiting says (3:08 PM):
loll
eh yc
weiting says (3:09 PM):
although i don know u for very long
i think my judgement is not that bad la
you can make a very gd boyfr!
小淳 says (3:09 PM):
lols
weiting says (3:09 PM):
just that you need more luck in getting good girls man haahhaha
lol thanks weiting... :D
anyway just stoning today.. last night drank too much with the mu guys.. they are crazy.. keep opening... im surprised that i didnt vomit.. at a point i almost puked though..
sighs.. we had steamboat gathering before heading out to a club ratchada and drank like duno wat..
it was quite boring cos i cant dance when i was high.. NO DANCEFLOOR! =(.. but i was laughing at the rest of the guys when they were high and playing around..
hais.. always wakeup in the morning then i ask myself why did i drank so much.. doing so much harm to my body these past months...
it doesnt help at all....
haha.. just for that afew hours of 'happiness' so i can not think?..
i know im very stupid..
please dont scold me...
hm haven sleep..
just a short update..
last night had reunion dinner with family.. it was nice.. after that i went out to meet kw for a drink..
sighs kw's friend had issues with his girl friend.. it was an emotional night..
went to DXO to try our luck.. managed to get in.. really enjoyed the dancing.. till there was a huge fight.. dun know how on earth it started anyway.. childish people..
glasses smashed everywhere.. and outside of DXO was a mess...
i was worried for yvonne.. so text if she was alright.. but she just reply in 1 word and 2 word.. after that she didnt even reply already..
im sad..
我真的好爱她。。
从来没爱过一个人到这么深。。
为何那么难放开。。
经过了这么多伤痛。。
我还是那么的。。
爱她。。
想她。。
我实在感得非常痛苦。。
有谁能了解这种折磨。。。。
just finish doing some spring cleaning.. phew..
was cleaning the side corridoor then made me recalled the moments i shared with yvonne there.. the failed mini BBQ which smoked up the whole house and cause her to feel unwell due to the overwhelming smoke..
playing with sparklers etc..
lols.. memories.. does bring a smile to my face thinking of that moment..
alright! gona meet up with shurn.. for a little walk.. the other guys shd be busy with their girls / work / studies.. oh well..
later on in the evening will be having reunion dinner :)..
dun think i can get in for the techno party later bah since no more ticket liao.. sians..
alright takecare! gona prepare to go out..
browzing through my com folders.. come across the photos and stuffs yvonne sent.. they're so sweet.. and esp some of the voice recording i recorded..
until now i still cant believe i've lost her..
and its after i've lost her then i realise wat i need isnt a pretty girl or wat.. actually wat i need was just a simple decent girl like her... all i need is just her..
the way she is....
herself...
but its too late....
今晚的我心情非常沉重。。
我天天想着你。。
但你以把我从你世界中扒掉。。
我该怎么做才能忘了你的一切。。
