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nice photos used to express this song although not all are relevant but afew of the photos has really nice quotes written on them.. can feel the song..



hahaha wtf this one the guy just make me laugh lor! look at his expression hahhaaa!!!!



this is interesting and cool! check it out :)



cute anime characters..


nice quote by one of my friends in facebook when i logged in to clear my cafeworld..

True love does not come by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.

alright now gona go zen place for a swim.. hais.. although i dont enjoy swimming during cloudy days.. but i also duno when then the weather will change back to sunny..

oh well...

something nice from baby
"I concerned nt for u den for who? :)"
so sweet :(..

ps: i dun enjoy being unproductive...




so nice =)

*added afew more songs to my player*


earlier on was kinda upset..
guess its cause of all the stress and unproductive days..
but im fine now.. so well im heading to bed after this..

mhm~ i wonder which part of dreamland darling is in now..
cause im joining her now :)..
goodnight!
i love u baby..<3


just got home from dar's place..

we went for movie at 715pm.. watched "how to train your dragon" its pretty good.. i actually find it quite nice.. but i think darling didnt really like it.. guess nxt time dun watch this type le bah..

after that went to dar's place.. we chatted for sometime.. then darling got tired den we cuddled for abit and she fell asleep..

seeing that shes sleeping well then i left her house le.. didnt manage to throw the key properly hopefully dar tmr will see it and pick it up for me =)..

well so now im back home..

checking email.. nw.. saw all the clubbing invitations due to the upcomming eve of good friday and good friday itself..

im quite vexed..

path 1. Go perth study Civil Engineering
path 2. Just study business mgmt/construction management in SIM
path 3. Work for 1 year then study

deadline is almost up..

i dun wan history to repeat...
im so inexperience..
sometimes i feel like so noob..

心情有点烦躁。。
我需要时间好好想。。

ps: 3 words..


mhm.. its just another rainy day..

so boring.. wana swim also hard.. please give me some good sunny day soon..!

later might be watching how to train your dragon with dar..
their timing is quite bad so actually im feeling abit hmm..
but since baby say that shes fine with it den alright den..

though yeah its good that i always worry for the other party but i guess sometimes think lesser might be good too..

k off to book the ticket then..


just got back from baby's place..

she looked so cute when shes sleeping.. esp when she just wokeup.. haha :).. it was quite unbearable..

went to her place at around 930pm.. cause i know she miss me.. her bro and gf was at home..

well we chatted and shared some thoughts.. =)

we both agrees that our love feels like 初恋的感觉。。

she's so tired.. poor girl :(.. i think we really need a good time table lol..

hugs~ hope you sleep well dar!
love ya!


just got home.. freaking dead tired!..

after shao mu went down striaght from marymount mrt station to meet my friend and have some discussion.. all the way..

now then got home.. finally i can bath....

darling was watching hotchick at home haha.. glad shes having some enjoyment over her weekend.. =).. i want her to relax, chill, have fun and be happy before another week of work..

just now standing in the mrt.. i almost fell asleep.. while standing... i dont enjoy that feeling at all..=(

*adds on to wat happened on that night*.. *written on 30.03.10*

well around midnight dar came over to my hse.. cause i was very tired.. so she ask me to stay home while she come over to find me.. so sweet <3.. its the first time she came to my house too..

well she stayed over.. when i saw her i actually became more awake haha.. maybe cause i wana cherish every second i have with her and see her longer..

dar intro me a movie and we watched it together.. it was great.. very nice.. thanks baby :).. been so long since i hug someone and watched a movie together at home.. it felt great..

after the movie we went to bed..

on sunday morning im surprised that baby wokeup so early! i think around 10am shes already up.. i like it=) maybe next time we can go market and buy breakfast home together!.. so loving <3..

ps: i wokeup many times in between, to close the blinds etc.. and darling push my leg down which scared me up from my sleep.. den she was laughing at me hahaha! wth..

sunday night she joined my family for dinner too.. everything was fine.. den after dinner we went home.. den left for our ktv session at party world.. we sang till about 2am.. im quite impressed by how much party world had changed.. they're pretty classy now..

dar sang really well.. on the other hand im horrible lol! bahh~

sent baby home after that.. she was so tired already.. and i felt bad as she still has to wakeup for work in the morning :(..

but we had a real great time together..=)


just got home, spent the night with darling.. then this morning she wokeup pretty early, she woke me up as actually i planned to go home in the morning.. (i like girls who wakes up early).. then after i wash up etc.. darling said shes feeling alittle hungry and she likes to eat Mac breakfast.. so we went out and had our breakfast in MacDonald..

now waiting for parents to be ready then we set off to shao mu..

and now i can officially address her as darling!.. last night i asked her officially if i can be her boyfriend and she agreed.. aww!.. wrote her a "love letter" which i think could've been better.. and gotten her some roses.. i swear the nxt time i get her flowers its gona be much better then the ones i got last night~!.. i wasnt pleased with the flowers i bought last night.. =( but due to limited choices i had no choice..

tried to surprise her but well shes so clever! haha i need to brush up on my skills le lor! getting stupid ><~ rawr!

we've gotten a step closer again.. so close till it feels as if our hearts are almost binded together..

she surprised me ALOT.. but i like them all.. though i didnt expect any of those from her.. but surprises sometimes make the love more exciting and fun =).. i love the way she is so far.. and im very happy =)

she love to tease me and say funny stuffs hahaha.. that make me like to do the same to her..


interesting i didnt knew..

A lap dance is a type of erotic dance performed in some strip clubs in which the patron is seated, and the dancer is either in immediate contact (contact dancing) with the patron, or within a very short distance. Depending on the local jurisdiction and community standards, lap dances can involve touching of the dancer by the patron, the patron by the dancer, neither, or both; the dancer may be naked, topless or fully clothed. Variant terms include couch dance which is a lap dance where the customer is seated on a couch, and bed dance where the customer lies down. In some places a block session (usually half an hour to an hour) can be booked in a champagne room, where the dancer and the patron talk in an intimate setting and drink champagne together. The dancer might perform lap dances too, depending on the patron's wishes.


mhm.. had my breakfast after giving someone special her morning call.. and well now just sitting here stoning abit lols!.. haha my lifestyle is so messed up now.. i really need a job to stable down everything.. but so far no replies yet =(..

the latest naruto manga is out on the net.. so well just read through.. the story is just getting more and more intense! madara implanted itachi's eyes into sasuke as sasuke's eyes can no longer see well due to him over using his eyes techniques in his recent duels.. so well now hes going to be more deadly and powerfull.. sigh.. wonder can naruto defeat him when they meet in combat the next time..





been a tiring night.. im going to sleep now.. maybe tmr then update more.. goodnight~

*missing you*


rawr! im such a pig! haha sleep till 2+pm.. arghs! worst is when i saw my hp i missed a date! omgosh! x 99..

i stared at the sms for afew second.. i was like surprised again.. didnt expect she would ask me for a lunch date :( but ahhh i missed it! *slap self*

had dreams again last night.. duno if it was nightmare or wat as i couldnt recall much.. but so much till i cant even hear my alarm..

just bathed out nt long now sitting here half naked typing my blog.. and eating my breakfast+lunch.. which is a pack of famous amos chocolate chip cookies! hahaha! im so 随便。。

i realized that i really lost some weight compared to the past.. cause now the pants i wore 2yrs ago for my work seemed rather lose and baggy =x.. gona wear formal today cause im doing some work..

just got a sms someone called me baober! hahaa! so cute and sweet..! its the first time she called me that in an sms.. hees.. i haven got time to update fully about yesterday.. i'll try to do so tonight..

alright going to go out le..
last but not least,

to this special someone:)
我好想你哦！<3


just got home and finished eating a tuna puff from cheers..

gosh i dont know why im so hungry nowadays esp during this hour.. i better control before i get fat again.. but the puff isnt enough i still feel like eating noodles now :o *ahhhh*..

*chew chew chew* bahh maybe if cant take it i go cook later..


my nap end up being a deep "sleep"..

shouldnt had taken it, cause i knew i cfm knock out till very late.. and true enough..

lately keep having dreams when i sleep.. and i'll wake up feeling aches and stiffness all over my back..

thinking too much?

maybe..

anyway just disappointed that i've to postpone my plans today till tomorrow.. i better get them done tomorrow!

was packing my room, but now im taking a break..


theres so much i like to know about you..
i've learnt that love is on how both person live and grow together as a whole..
helping and guiding each other along the way..
through ups and downs..
through sickness, poor, unhappiness and everything till death..

i've seen clearer on what this feeling was..
now i'll wait for your answer..
i hope u'll be the one..

i cant assure that i can be the best boyfriend because i believe if im perfect i wouldnt had a history of heart breaks.. but im willing to be and give my best to you..

and if you guide me along the way i believe i can do it too..

hugs~

goodnight.. im going to take a nap..
feeling so stoned after staying up the whole night..


couldnt sleep.. end up went to macs at beauty world to visit my bro and sis (zen and tiff) with benjamin as they were studying there.. took the car and drove there.. as its within my neighbourhood only..

curse the stupid army for delaying my lic! my batch unlucky lor.. not only rank frozen if never complete BMT and now they're going to check through the milege in detail before approving the lic.. cause of some jerks in the pervious batch who cheated the milege to get their lics! people like us who worked our asses off to get our milege has to suffer due to them..

arghhs!! i heard might have to drag for 1mth-2mths! whereas my friends in the previous batch got their lic within like days after they ORD.. so irritating lor!..

anyway i finally had my double McSpicy meal tonight.. it tasted just like the Mega McSpicy leh.. i think they just changed the name.. and they modify the meal such that if you upsize u get the hot and spicy shaker fries thingy?..

well.. we just chilled in mac.. discussed about some issues.. and also got mentioned about my degree.. currently thinking of going perth.. BUT.. im not sure yet.. honestly i rather stay in SG to study and work.. esp that my parent's health are getting worst by the days.. if i go perth it would be 3yrs or more.. i dont really wish for them to continue supporting me even at that age... although some people thinks that i dont care and dont think.. but actually i think until im clueless already...

i realised that the more we think the more we'll hesitate.. so why not just jump into action? crap all the risk and uncertainties.. they will always be there!.. learning is to be in a situation where u cant control and adapting to the changing and facing your fears..

thanks tiff mei for sharing her experience in her career.. i agree and understands with wat shes trying to bring across.. someone once told me the same thing.. but i didnt manage to convince her..

anyway thats the past.. like wat yin always tell me.. we shdnt live in the past.. its unhealthy!..

i must learn to be firm.. yes my parents has always been making and doing all the decisions for me since young.. i wished they didnt.. so i wont became such an indecisive person now..

theres more for me to learn in life!
so much so much more!
dont be naive anymore..
its time to get out..


我不清楚你对我的看法。。
害怕再次受伤的可能。。
也害怕被拒绝。。

不知道你喜欢不喜欢我。。
我开始害怕。。
但心里却一直想着你。。

原本以为我不会再爱上任何人。。
但你的出现竟让我心动了。。

我因该怎么办才好。。。


didnt know that tankini look like that.. pretty nice =o



i was reading naruto manga online.. well the storyline just gets more and more emotional especially when naruto and sasuke meets up.. hais its sad that sasuke became evil and wants to kill everyone even sakura who loved him..


meeps~ cold weather often make my stomach feel uncomfortable easily..

i think my stomach need to upgrade it's windows if theres any haha!..

just now talked with yin for about 6hrs.. wow.. cant believe it..
she called me cause she was worried about me being vexed/emo.. im really touched by her concern.. thanks yin :)

shes really a nice innocent girl.. i've known her since poly year 1 although we lost contact inbetween.. im glad that we somehow manage to catch up again... maybe fate? im not sure..

something slipped out of my heart and mouth..

something i thought i would never be saying again or felt again... but this feeling seem to have a life of its own.. i couldnt contain it..

im scared..


just got home..

accompanied benjamin for lunch.. actually i shouldnt eat becos i just had my "breakfast" right before i left to meet him at the coffeeshop but.. end up i ate more then him.. guess its a sign that im stressed or something wrong.... cause previously i dont even eat this much..

i had my fav duck noodles and after that got a weird drink from cheers.. its called bavaria i think and i took the peach flavour while benjamin tried the apple one.. taste weird seriously im not going to drink that again.. then i went to eat mushroom cheese prata..

come home then dad kan me for trying to go into some company and get myself cheated.. haiya.. since even my own family also dont support me.. im dropping it liao la.. im so tired...

vexed..


finally the temp job for the weekend is over.. and right now im sitting here really stoning and falling asleep...

so tired to even wonder if i can bath.. gosh but a whole day of cold sweat and rain i really need to shower..

*drags self*.....

ps: theres alot i like to blog about the job and also some feelings.. but im really too tired to think now.. shall update tmr or another day..


i just wokeup.. having stiff neck and my chest feels tight.. think cos i just plopped and knocked out in a bad posture ba.. although i did wakeup at 8+am to take a pee.. but that time i was still feeling seh..

now im better.. its weird when you wakeup from a night of drinking u always start to ask yourself wat happened last night bla bla bla..

anyway when i step in supperclub for the first time last night i was surprised cause its very nice, great ambiance etc.. but the crowd last night was disappointing because its weekday i guess.. so not much pple went.. in a way its good also lar like that wont have fights.. the music was great.. thought i feel that its not as happening as the music played during the first event at DXO..

i wasnt very happy with the drinks last night.. at first shared with xiaofeng a jug.. vodka 7up i think? its 1 for 1 for 50$.. gosh when i drink it i felt like i ordered soft drinks instead of housepour.. cant even taste the vodka.. even after missygreen asked the waiter to add more vodka.. it still taste the same..

so later on i asked the bartender if they have any strong shots.. then he recommended me bacardi 151.. ok he let me tried a bit first for free... it tasted ok.. not so sickening like tequila.. so i say ok and ordered a shot.. so he filled up a shot glass and lighted the drink with his lighter.. and im suppose to suck it all up with a straw... ok that really tasted quite strong and hot..

den i had another jug of vodka cranberry i think?.. actually he say vodka redbull but dont know why end up is pink colour de.. so i assume its cranberry since it tasted like it...

after sometime i start to feel the kick.. shd be from the shot.. gosh.. but ok.. lucky got kangwei to dance with me.. but sadly the event ended early so i didnt get to enjoy myself fully..

i saw yvonne.. sighs.. yeah i've already been forcing myself to forget her and get over it.. since she didnt talked to me for months and im already like someone she wont bother on her msn contact and hp.. but still.. i still felt that something..

也许我真的不适合谈恋爱。。
一定是我不够好，所以你才想要逃。。
有时候我真的怀疑我自己会不会爱人。。
我开始对爱情有着恐惧感。。




cant believe that i still love you so much.........................
gooodnightttttttttttttttt


just finish talking with yin for 2hrs.. i cant recall when was the last time i talk to someone for so long.. i think that was when i was still attached..?

anyway it feels great to be able to talk to someone again..

thanks yin :)..

gona give her morning call later at 7am.. been sometime since i gave someone morning call too.. hmm i hope i can wakeup ><.. since i've been so nocturnal lately..


ORD back to study, very ma fan, need so many procedure says (2:46 PM):
dun lose to urself, once fall faster stand up, step by step less mistake
小淳 * Y c says (2:47 PM):
=)

thanks william..


just got up.. went back to sleep in the noon since my friend push back the meet up timing..

dreamt about yvonne again.. sighs.. everytime when i dream of her i wakeup feeling real tired.. hahas..

人家都不管你了，为和我还是想着她？
真白痴。。！

anyway i got to go prepare already got to meet up with my friend..

last night ben and zn came over to my place to chill.. and zn stayed over.. we chat in bed till ard 8am.. haha.. felt like as if i had a real brother..


lolx max hahahaha....

That Boy Is A Monster! Mmmmon mmmmon mmmon monster! says (12:05 PM):
i wanted to tell u garfield sounds cuter and more adorable
and more huggable
小淳 * Y c says (12:05 PM):
hahahahahhaha!
That Boy Is A Monster! Mmmmon mmmmon mmmon monster! says (12:05 PM):
dat cute furry ball







looking thru 美丽的神话 and lyrics.. feeling abit affected.. she love this song last time too..

and i watched the movie with her..

hais.. feel so bored.. guess im going for some casual drinking tonight with xiaofeng.. since we also haven finish our chivas..


do not regret, but take all as an learning experience.. grow from all your wrong decisions and mistakes.. dont care wat others think about you becos they are not the one living ur life and if they're ur true friends they will be there whatever happens or whatever u've become.. but never look down on urself and lose hope.. cos no one will be able to save u..

suddenly this thought just appear in my head like that.. and im feeling better ler..
jiayou! this is how we learn..
finally i can go sleep soon after feeling better..


i so have to stop what i've been doing to myself for the past 5mths and 4 days...

recently something happened and i really regret alot on even letting myself falling to such extend.. i became a joke.. a real stupid joke..

have no idea how much my organs might had been damaged during this period..

im starting to see clearer again.. i just want to pray that i dont get blind by the pain and start doing stupid thing again...

some part of me changed and i feel that im so not the guy i was 6mths ago....

im starting to feel lost..
i duno wats right wats wrong anymore..

a man can really fall into traps easily during his weakest moments..


Prof. ProFire | LoveBite says (10:11 PM):
You too wor..
Don't over emo k?
I also emoing here...
hahaa
小淳 * Y c says (10:15 PM):
okies
thanks for caring
lols
i think u got more emo hidden
u also dun think too much bahs
anyway im more or less almost giving up on girls
Prof. ProFire | LoveBite says (10:15 PM):
same same..
heck care them all....
Prof. ProFire | LoveBite says (10:16 PM):
Got friends enough...
小淳 * Y c says (10:16 PM):
nods


lols wth i got a new nickname given by Max today..

GARFIELD.. LOL~ wthh..

i woke up late cos i drank and slept late.. den he said..

"I just knew it!! Garfield-like GYC!!!! Always lying around in the bed, snuggling up to ur soft comfy pillow! Hahhahahaha. :)"

lmaos wth......

intro on garfield by wiki:
Garfield is a persian cat born in the kitchen of an Italian restaurant (later revealed in the television special Garfield: His 9 Lives to be Mama Leoni's Italian Restaurant) and immediately ate all the pasta and lasagna in sight, thus developing a love and obsession for lasagna.Gags in the strips commonly deal with Garfield's obesity (in one strip, Jon jokes, "I wouldn't say Garfield is fat, but the last time he got on a Ferris wheel, the two guys on top starved to death"), and his hatred of exercise (or any form of work; he is known for saying breathing is exercise.) In addition to being portrayed as lazy and fat, Garfield is also pessimistic, sadistic, cynical, sarcastic, sardonic and a bit obnoxious. He enjoys destroying things, mauling the mailman, tormenting Odie, kicking Odie off the table; he also makes snide comments, usually about Jon's inability to get a date (in one strip, when Jon bemoans the fact that no one will go out with him on New Year's, Garfield replies, "Don't feel bad Jon. They wouldn't go out with you even if it weren't New Year's.") Though Garfield can be very cynical, he does have a soft side for his teddy bear, Pooky, food and sleep, but one Christmas he says "they say I have to get up early, be nice to people, skip breakfast...I wish it would never end."

i think i rather be Odie cos Odie quite cute also LOL i dun wan to be a FAT CAT hahaha!


just wokeup..

cant believe that i dreamt that yvonne look me up and we patched up.. den everything like back to the loving times.. so weird.. gosh felt so real.. when i wokeup den i realize its just a dream..

hahas.. *slaps self* stop dreaming!


Suddenly this old song by avril kinda ring up a bell..





so yeah i just got back awhile ago..

den Sun wana borrow a camera from me for his concert later.. so well i have to leave my hse to pass him the camera in abt 1hr time..

dun feel like coming home right after that.. so well i guess i'll go walk around alone maybe?..

okies will stop here for nw


listening to techno now and i wana thank yvonne for sharing with me her techno collection last time when we were together as my collections were destroyed when my old hard disk crashed...

thanks girl..