mehs..
guess tonight im really going to sleep early..
try to wakeup earlier too haha!
in a sick way i miss those normal routines i use to do during army..
during those days everyday felt so long..
because i wakeup at 6am during my unit life? and 5am in tekong?
then all the way till evening..
the hours in a day seem longer haha..
now when i wakeup its already like late noon..
dots..
too stressed up previously.. and im still suffering from the effects..
couldnt have a good sleep and wakeup feeling fresh etc..
and baby keep finding white hair on my head..
dont remember myself having so many of those before =x..
arghs..
just hasnt been great.. some people keep asking me to help
as if im some santa when im already troubled and occupied with myself..
do they even bother to think for me when they should?
i have friends claiming to be good friend.. when all he did
was to call me when he's bored and talk about rubbish when i dont
even have much to talk to him.. while he has plenty of time at that point..
cause he was working and waiting for his time to pass.. ok i dont mind talking..
but he can drag for hours when im already like so bored hinting him to put down..
worst when im doing something at that point of time too.. and he expects me to stop
wat im doing and talk..
but no he doesnt catch it.. and i dont feel like being a mean guy and say "wat the fck are u talking abt, u're boring me out, are u just calling me because u're bored?"
tat sort of stuffs..
if they're just gona call me all the time and repeat the same shit it makes no sense for me to answer their calls when im busy.. then they say that i never answer their calls bla bla bla..
then i've pple wanting to borrow money from me again.. wth.. i wish im working in a bank.. i also need cash myself like they do.. why must i save money and restrict myself from buying what i desires and end up lending it out with no guarantees of seeing my money again?..
yes im quite an accommodating person.. but i just feel disgusted when people 1 by 1 start stepping over my head.. worst when they themselves dont even care much and only look for me when they're in need of companion or for a reason.. and when i the invisible friend to them from the start, couldnt make it or be there then they start getting pissed off, getting offended and shits.. and start putting all the shit on me.. this is lame.. and im tired of all these kinda people.. sickening!..
if you dont even want to spare a thought, to understand what your 'friend' is going through or needs.. then dont fucking expect them to give a shit about you too!
