mhm. its a cloudy day again.. the sky's dark and yellowish..
guess its going to be another wet evening and night later?..
=x..
well hasnt been blogging much cos i've been quite occupied this week..
mehx..
well last night was doing flyer with tiff mei and zen di.. its so tiring to do
landed houses lol! we only distributed a small portion of the neighbourhood
and it felt like ages.. gosh..
after that they came to my place to rest and chill till ard 5am..
anyway! firstly congrats ben! ur wish came true! told u nt to worry so much liao..
stay happy and loving ok :)
although i've registered for my uni course le.. but still feeling some uncertainty inside..
really shitty.. i hate the perfectionist thinking.. also due to external factors keep making me
wonder if i've made the right choice..
its true that i shd just follow my heart and pick wat i like.. but well i realized that i require
alot external support too with my decisions..
anyway i dont want to go back to ECE cause i know my standards.. i deffinitely will struggle
in uni.. though yah my sister said if i work harder it might be fine.. but im hesistating on it..
afraid to make the same mistake twice.. but aint i a risk taker? haha but well studies..
i had my share of risk and i've learnt from it.. i think its better to do something i've more
confidence in.. then to go for something i dont have so much confidence and suffer..
after all this is education u're talking about..
thought about going overseas.. well im quite tempted to challenge myself actually..
but well 3 - 4yrs aint a short time man.. i dont wish it to be an act of impulse..
if im going overseas its to study CE.. at first im more or less set on it.. but then dad
kept telling me negative things and say that my character isnt really suitable for the job..
i believe its not that i cant stand the weather and harsh environment but perhaps yes the
PR side.. and how to handle all the workers, supervisors and contractors.. they're all
hard and hokkien styled.. its true that i maybe too soft to control them...
my dad has his points.. afterall hes been in the line for so long he knows wat kinda
personalities are required to make the job work..
oh well.. and it cost a total of about 200k aust dollars to study in aust for the whole course.. and also
living expenses etc etc.. its not cheap! and well its not like my dad can afford then i must go..
im not feeling that well confident right now.. im afraid i'll waste the money.. so the safer path is
study in sg first, meanwhile i can also work and do something worthwhile.. while im getting my
degree here.. and after that perhaps if i still want to try overseas life and learn to be independent and
have a taste of overseas learning i can take my masters there.. or go for summer attachments..
i've been thinking alot alot since i orded.. going nuts.. so well yesterday i just went to register first..
at least i secure a place.. instead of just thinking and no action.. whether i get enroled in anot is another
problem though.. but at least i did something..
bah!~ my mind still so clouded by all the worries and decision making.. *shakes*
anyway today baby got OT.. hmm wonder wat would we be doing tonight mmmhm...
tmr morning have to attend my grandma 100th day..
