just woke up but i dont feel like i've slept.. and im not feeling hungry.. dont even feel like eating..
u just dont get it..
feeling horrible.. but who will appear and be there for u?.. most people will just give a casual remark.. "Are you alright? What happened? Chill/Relax.. Takecare..".. after that do you think they really will think about ur problems / worries or care about you??
haha...
once again must say this is life... the ugly truth..
face it and accept it.. is this always the only way we can see it? when will there be an exception when something different happens?...
how i wish i can find another self like me.. at least i wont always feel so alone... to people whom can never understand i've always been like an emotional freak / attention seeker or moodswing to them.. seriously go and die.. dont judge and assume if you dont even understand them...
i hate it when i have an emotional leak..
too much stress and issues lately causing this outbreak..
i need a break..
maybe tonight i should drink until i get high from cheap drinks from 7-11
can i even still enjoy the bbq later? i doubt...
not going to care so much anymore..
no matter wat.. think before u say anything.. just because u're affected it doesnt give u any rights to hurt people around u whom are helping eventhough they're in a shit hole themselves..
sigh. feeling quite shitty today.. with an upcoming thunder storm to make the late afternoon even more boring..
business hasnt been that smooth lately.. but its tiring cos im doing so much work on myside.. alot of attention has to be spent on different areas..
im alittle shaken but im still trying to keep my focus and goals there..
strive hard, work hard!
believe in yourself..
I'm getting tired of everything.. Hasn't been blogging for sometime as I've no time..
Can't seem to take time away and do my own things as when I tries to do that then something will screw up.. Guess I have to spend my time wiser..
Somethings I also shouldn't bother or be 3rd party anymore since I can't even handle my own problems.. And to those selfish pple if u're one please f off..
Cause I don't need another add on to my burden and stress.. I rather use those time on other areas..
I'm busy like shit but I still find time to go out etc.. With a heavy mind sometime I don't know who really understands me out there..
Sick and tired.. Maybe I should just be more low profile.. Live in my own world do what I like.. Sometimes think too much for others they also won't appreciate anything.. Just one mistake and boom! U're out.. Or u're fucked!
Screw this kinda thinking if u think this way.. Spend more time to understand how others feel first please..
too much i need to do.. poor planning and energy levels is making me slow on accomplishing them..
this is not good..
omg man.. the bedding are rotting.. freaking gross can.. tmr i have to change everything liao i think cant stand this shit
人都会希望在他们烦恼的时候，会有个人能了解他们。。
寂寞和孤单是人们心中真正的敌人。。
just opened the soya milk with almond which zen di and tiff mei brought over the other night when they came over to find me..
first time drinking it i think.. as in soya + almond.. actually taste quite ok.. almost abit like the bubble tea almond taste..
gona expire on the 15th..
dont know if its coincidence or they remember i like almond haha:)
anyway appreciated.. other then zen di and tiff mei i think no one else will just drop by without a reason or just to chill.. anyway i was already used to it.. the place i stay is not very friendly to people without a car or staying nearby hahas!
anyway poor hammie moaning in a sad tone now.. dont know whats wrong with him.. sighs..
worrying for them..
PS: ben n zen jiayou for ur exams.. it will be over soon:)
the little ones keep fighting gosh. i think until very tired liao..
Another night, another dream, and always you
It's like a vision of love that seems to be true
Another night, another dream, and always you
In the night I dream of a love so true
Just another night, another vision of love
You feel joy, you feel pain
'Cause nothing will be the same
Just another night, it's all that it takes
To understand the difference between
lovers and fakes, oh baby
I talk, talk, I talk to you
In the night in your dream of love so true
I talk, talk, I talk to you
In the night in your dream of love so true
In the night, in my dreams
I'm in love with you
'Cause you talk to me, like lovers do
I feel joy, I feel pain, 'cause it's still the same
when the night is gone I'll be alone
Another night, another dream, and always you
It's like a vision of love that seems to be true
Another night, another dream, and always you
In the night I dream of a love so true
Just another night, another dream
Another vision of love,
And we are here to set you free
I am the lover, your lover
Hey, sister, let me cover your body with my loving
Is my loving just a number?
Vision of love that seems to be true
we will do all the things that only lovers do
Vision of love that seems to be true
we will do all the things that only lovers do
In the night, in my dreams
I'm in love with you
'Cause you talk to me, like lovers do
I feel joy, I feel pain, 'cause it's still the same
when the night is gone I'll be alone
Another night, another dream, and always you
It's like a vision of love that seems to be true
Another night, another dream, and always you
In the night I dream of a love so true
I talk, talk, I talk to you
In the night in your dream of love so true
I talk, talk, I talk to you
In the night in your dream of love so true
In the night, in my dreams
I'm in love with you
'Cause you talk to me, like lovers do
I feel joy, I feel pain, 'cause it's still the same
when the night is gone I'll be alone
Another night, another dream, and always you
It's like a vision of love that seems to be true
Another night, another dream, and always you
In the night I dream of a love so true
Sigh.. Couldn't get back to sleep thou I only slept for awhile.. Drank quite abit last night as I wasn't feeling happy.. Quite afew unhappy happening lately including sad ones...
When u nid someone u'll realize that u've no one.. I'm tired and losing faith in alot of things.. But right now i mustn't be shaken as I've things which require my commitment..
It's been a long time since I lost anything and just when I let my guard down I lost something..
I hate loosing items!!
People are selfish most of the time they only take from others and stay in their comfort zones.. Sigh.. This is probably one of the hard times which god had planned for me.. I just has to endure and appear strong.. Least I'm no longer as emo as how I used to be.. But it still hurts..
It's so quiet now..
Sometime I feel that people has to stop their footsteps and feel wats happening around them.. We always rushing around we tend to miss out alot of things happening around us..
Eg for couples it will be how u'll kiss each other in the morning when one wakes up first and stare at your love of ur life sleeping soundly beside.. How staring at him/her makes ur morning warmth.. Sometimes people tend to get to used to each other and they forget to appreciate each other.. Eg when making a meal for each other became a job instead of it being act of love.. How walking/sending each other home became a hassle and waste of time.. They know that they need to appreciate one and other and the things they do together but I guess it's hard cause we have emotions and sometimes we can't control it.. It often affects us and the way we see things.. Like how people will mistreat their loved ones when they had a bad day although they might not meant it..
Humans are too complicated.. Sometimes I'm amaze by how simple and innocent animals can be..
The only companion I've now is 2 hammies.. They are the one accompanying me now when I'm sad.. But they having a bit of problem.. I bought a winterwhite to accompany figitive but seem like the winterwhite is afraid of figitive.. But figitive seem to like miss winter and despite how much she's rejecting he still keep getting close.. In a way it's quite sweet..
Suddenly has this image in my mind of a girl having pms or a bad day and the bf keep trying to cheer her up eventhou he might suck at it..
Love is such a weird thing it can either make a person or break one.. Yet we still long for it.. How sad.. Yesterday Ben share with me about this girl whom commit sucide over a guy.. It'saddening.. And she's not ugly too.. Quite rare to see girls like that still exist.. I'm thought that girls are all realistic nowadays.. Seem like only money can please people now.. It's no longer like oh I love u then I can go thru thick and thin with u le.. Since when does money come into love.. Why? Isit cause we're living in a modern world now? Where u nid money to eat and live well..
Guess the idea of simple love will soon be forgotten.. What's love when most of the thing involved just require u to spend money to gain favour from the opposite? Isit a relation based on transactions? I'm loosing faith in love so much till I feel like giving up.. If it's going to be like a job then what's the point...
Hope figitive and miss winter can get along..
