Sigh.. Couldn't get back to sleep thou I only slept for awhile.. Drank quite abit last night as I wasn't feeling happy.. Quite afew unhappy happening lately including sad ones...
When u nid someone u'll realize that u've no one.. I'm tired and losing faith in alot of things.. But right now i mustn't be shaken as I've things which require my commitment..
It's been a long time since I lost anything and just when I let my guard down I lost something..
I hate loosing items!!
People are selfish most of the time they only take from others and stay in their comfort zones.. Sigh.. This is probably one of the hard times which god had planned for me.. I just has to endure and appear strong.. Least I'm no longer as emo as how I used to be.. But it still hurts..
It's so quiet now..
Sometime I feel that people has to stop their footsteps and feel wats happening around them.. We always rushing around we tend to miss out alot of things happening around us..
Eg for couples it will be how u'll kiss each other in the morning when one wakes up first and stare at your love of ur life sleeping soundly beside.. How staring at him/her makes ur morning warmth.. Sometimes people tend to get to used to each other and they forget to appreciate each other.. Eg when making a meal for each other became a job instead of it being act of love.. How walking/sending each other home became a hassle and waste of time.. They know that they need to appreciate one and other and the things they do together but I guess it's hard cause we have emotions and sometimes we can't control it.. It often affects us and the way we see things.. Like how people will mistreat their loved ones when they had a bad day although they might not meant it..
Humans are too complicated.. Sometimes I'm amaze by how simple and innocent animals can be..
The only companion I've now is 2 hammies.. They are the one accompanying me now when I'm sad.. But they having a bit of problem.. I bought a winterwhite to accompany figitive but seem like the winterwhite is afraid of figitive.. But figitive seem to like miss winter and despite how much she's rejecting he still keep getting close.. In a way it's quite sweet..
Suddenly has this image in my mind of a girl having pms or a bad day and the bf keep trying to cheer her up eventhou he might suck at it..
Love is such a weird thing it can either make a person or break one.. Yet we still long for it.. How sad.. Yesterday Ben share with me about this girl whom commit sucide over a guy.. It'saddening.. And she's not ugly too.. Quite rare to see girls like that still exist.. I'm thought that girls are all realistic nowadays.. Seem like only money can please people now.. It's no longer like oh I love u then I can go thru thick and thin with u le.. Since when does money come into love.. Why? Isit cause we're living in a modern world now? Where u nid money to eat and live well..
Guess the idea of simple love will soon be forgotten.. What's love when most of the thing involved just require u to spend money to gain favour from the opposite? Isit a relation based on transactions? I'm loosing faith in love so much till I feel like giving up.. If it's going to be like a job then what's the point...
Hope figitive and miss winter can get along..
