Got up from my nap and I couldn't get back to sleep.. Had some hot green tea and was just dazing in the dark living room earlier.. Feels weird.. Somethings missing but I can't tell what is what already..
Sigh.. Oh well.. Scribbling on my notebook before I try to get back to sleep.. Nowadays when I'm alone my expression is always (-.-) .. So lifeless.. Argh..
Hope to see better results soon to assure myself that all my effort hasn't gone in waste..
Sis hasn't come back yet hais duno where she go also.. She's like me.. Family doesn't share with each other on how we feel etc.. It's so awkward sometimes.. Let's see if she will be around tmr.. Maybe I'll try talking to her..
I can't wait to achieve my goals.. Each problem I faced just reminds me how important money is to everyone.. Lifes is harsh and realistic.. Through my recent investments I learnt the importance of knowing how to plan well.. It's important to know how to manage your savings and finance.. And I know how hard it is to start a biz.. Without a network..
But I hate it cos networking also build on money.. And sometimes u have to do things u don't really enjoy and spending additional expenses without a promise that they will be interested in your products or your ideas..
Really disgusting sometimes..
So much so much more! I have yet to experience and learn.. I have so much goals I hope to achieve in the next 3years during my uni studies..!
I want to be able to pay for my own living, car, treat my friends and family to meals etc.. My own investment funds..
Trying my best.. Everyday is an opportunity!
People tell me I always give myself additional stress and worries.. Sometimes I think they're right.. But I have no idea how to relax or change it.. I can only try to care lesser or maybe something else..
Maybe I'm always under stress from family, friends and gf expectations.. Always trying to be the best but I'm still a human and I only have limited resources.. When I feel I couldn't do certain things I just stress myself more.. Hais so tiring..
Sometimes when u have no one to talk to.. Writing it out seems good.. Though u can't feel the warmth from a caring soul but at least u don't have to worry if the person will get tired of ur craps or whether they will understands etc
K but think I wrote enough crap le.. Should clear my mind abit for me to sleep without bad dreams tonight? I hope....
