read weiting's blog.. kinda feel wat she was thinking.. some of the post kinda remind me of my thoughts too..
im so weak when it come to emotional issues.. haha.. overall i feel im WEAK! and i HATE it.. why i couldnt make full use of this life which im blessed with.. sometimes theres so many things i feel i hate about myself..
and i hate it even more when people dont understands wat im going through..
weiting i agree with u..
quote from her..
"Saturday, May 22, 2010
i opened up the convo and stared at the blank space for quite some time. no idea what to say. so i closed it.
Monday, May 31, 2010
as much as i wanted to believe how noble love is, it's really sad to say that the presence of the reality make you realise that you can never have this kind of thinking in mind. i'm starting to believe that eventually when i'm 25(okay, the age i'm intending to get married=.=), this guy may not be the one i had loved the most.
i used to believe that so long as you get to marry the one you loved the most in your lifetime, any problems could be worked out. aiyer who's going to guarantee that you tell me.
However, if one day i'm given a choice, i'll still choose this belief. contradicting eh?=s
the past, the present and the future of the other half, which of them makes up the most important determining factor to you? If you ask me, i bet my answer's gonna shock you.
I'm beginning not to understand myself anymore, sometimes i even freak myself out. i look at my going-to-get-married-soon sister, and my going-to-get-married-also boss, my perspective towards love, relationship and marriage changed. why am i becoming so realistic in life. sian leh.
a part of me says that from now on never ever go into a relationship with your true feelings anymore. but the other part of me tells me that, i'm born to be traditional, i can never play around or fool around cause i'm not cut out to do that."
