where are u always when i need u? is it really so hard to find care and concern in this world?.. tiring to fight alone all the time..
anyway ignore me im just saying qi hua.. people who knows me long enough should know how am i like..
my sis called to check on the situation.. den duno why after that sms me and question me again about why i didnt want to go overseas.. wth lor.. why people only know how to access situation on the surface and never go indept.. maybe to everyone i was really undriven, lazy and useless.. but even when i get driven.. why i still see no one being supportive? haha.. i just has to face all of these my self..
if i went overseas.. i think its gona be even harder for my dad.. since now this accident case is going to cost us a fair amount of money.. due to drink driving.. the insurance aint going to cover a cent.. thats why i hate insurance sometimes.. they say until so nice when u're buying but when shit happens and when you want to claim.. u have to go through alot of shit paper work and they wont immediate grant you the coverage..
haiz... i know going overseas study is better.. learn to be independant etc gain more knowledge and aids with my maturity.. but theres also a risk that i might get influenced or something else?.. i also know my weakness and im not as confident with myself being in overseas alone for 3years.. and this risk involves like almost 300k! seriously i rather not risk it especially when its not even my own money..
apparently they dont see wat i meant and only think of the bad things.. assuming im lazy.. dont dare to take risk bla bla..
wth lar.. im tired of even my own family unable to understand and support my decisions.. and yet they always want me to make my decision but not supporting it.. how contradicting right? how am i going to grow into a confident man with this fear of making the right decision..
im upset..
just going to keep myself busy..
i dont wish to think anymore..
