hahah.. too much for me to really blog bahs.. stupid Business Statistic is a real pain in the ass!
imagine maths in theory form wow.. best combination man! forming equations from text.. wah lao! thursday is the test le faints! only topic 1 to 5 and i already choke.. nothing to say man..
tmr going to sch in the morning to study so well going to sleep early tonight..
Monday, August 30, 2010 - 3:14 AM
day ended..
today woke up at 7:30am.. then just nice when i woke up sandy called me.. haha! she offered to call me knowing that i've work.. 谢谢！
okies sleeping earlier really does helps.. i slept around 1+am.. compared to the usual 3+ 4+am.. does feel more awake this morning compared to the usual days..
saw louis sms when i woke up was shocked.. he smsed me at 2+am saying he will drive over to pick me up and we head down to pick wen before going Expo together.. but well end up there was a little delay so end up wen said she go herself so louis just need to fetch me..
mhm can see louis was kinda shag.. he was smoking and driving lmao.. funny.. hes kinda like full of spirit unlike me so zombie all the time LOL.. i need to cure myself lols! anyway yeah he kinda sped his way down the highway and we reached Expo in no time.. got there by around 9:15am.. wen was early so she got us breakfast.. :) really nice.. it was egg mayo sandwich and milo.. pretty much warms up our morning.. but i feel the sandwich would be even nicer if its had more egg and mayo haha!!
we kinda set up the booth for awhile before we officially start our work at 10am.. the crowd was ok.. as its last day of the fair and also a Sunday so well theres more people.. it was really crazy.. quite funny to see how people love the mascot and play with him.. looking at how small kids hug and love the mascot really felt kinda sweet and warmth.. the kind of innocence and purity in them.. its indescribable..
well time flies soon it was lunch and we had BK! haha wen and louis went out to dapao and they got for me some new burger since i always eat mushroom swiss double.. well i think its mushroom chicken or something? its like grilled chicken with mushroom.. its pretty tasty!! yummy..
after lunch we started working again.. many visitors came over and we had to explain our packages to them.. it was quite tensed lol! cause they asked a lot questions and we wasn't really fully trained to answer them that professionally so well we just explained the basics and general enquiries while our boss handled the more detailed explanations..
before we know it, it was 4pm! time for wen and me to end work.. so well we had some group photo taking sessions before we left.. it was really fun and crazy.. haha! loving it.. i so wanna get my own DSLR..
so well took train back.. for the 2nd time with wen lol.. she sent me to bishan den i took a cab there home.. since i had to make it back by 6pm for my family dinner..
got home drove my family over to defu lane and we had dinner there.. intro by my sister.. the food are pretty nice indeed :)
after that i went home.. suppose to meet up with a seller for her syrians but well last min she tell me the female is pregnant so the bf wants to keep it.. oh well i understand her situation so i say ok just let me know when shes ready to sell..
having that plan cancelled i laid on my bed and fell asleep for about 1hour+ ..
after i woke up i went over to zen's place and deliver him 2 pack of 2.3kg delikate food for his hammies.. since his supplies ran out.. after that stayed and chatted with him abit.. before coming back home..
came online and li ling chatted with me abit.. haha she got a guinea pig recently! how cool!! hahaha im really tempted to get a pair to try! :) and also netherlands rabbits! but well kinda having space constrains now.. thanks to my dog i have to make sure i have proper cages/tanks for them else they going to lose their life :( sob..
alright basically sumed up wat happened for my sunday!
tmr have to be in school by around 12pm for OB group discussion sighs! and i've not even had time to really work on my part.. regarding 'Perceptions'.. rawr!! need to improve my reflection and summary of the topic..
ok time to sleep!
sweet dreams!
Saturday, August 28, 2010 - 10:14 PM
there will be time when we will always be envious of others..
there will be time when we will feel like we're the only one living..
there will be time when we will feel like our existence doesn't meant anything to anyone..
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im questioning myself again..
what have i achieved?
- 2:53 PM
just woke up well had 'breakfast' with mum.. she talked to me.. ask me abt some stuffs.. as usual she talk abt depressing things like wat i need to know before she pass away with age etc.. omg la.. sighs... :(
really tired seem like one task after another haha everlasting.. guess its too much for me to handle.. when i myself isnt really happy lately..
i just haven get used to this kinda round the clock life.. but i can feel the impact its having on me already.. been really running on reserve batt.. so much till often i can have blurred vision.. concentration and focusing ability has been rather off also..
anyway to sum up about yst..
only had about 2hrs of sleep? thanks to sandy for calling me up as she knew i confirm wont wake up when she saw my tweet and knowing that i've morning lecture.. but well i was half awake when she called so her first call already made me woke up.. she called me at around 730am.. then i went to bath, had my breakfast and drove to school.. but the traffic jam took up quite abit of my time.. end up was late for 15mins.. Fabian was late too but well he just went in striaght without waiting haha.. guess cause he dont want to miss out any sec of the lecture.. so well i walked in the lecture like a zombie then just sat at the last row, didnt felt like walking to the front as its quite fully seated also..
haha cant believe i actually accidentally fell asleep for afew second.. and Jazreel and Glynis just nice saw it.. omg man then Jazreel tweet me lol.. funny ><
during break time i shifted down and join the rest of the kachingers at the first 2 rows.. as theres a seat beside jasmine kok.. this time during i nv really buy much snack le just got the milk candy which cost $2.. quite ex.. must stop eating so much junk during break.. before i gain back all the fats!
jasmine was randomly asking me afew stuffs, quite random.. first time im seating beside her also.. overall kachingers are nice people.. but sadly recently there seems to be having some issues between some of them.. and i can feel that some are floating furthur away already.. especially class A peeps.. sigh.. it takes 2 hands to clap.. i cant help much also.. im carrying enough work and problem right now.. cant be the peace keeper or bonder.. but im still very glad that in the group theres still people working on organizing events for both groups to meet up and keeping the contact.. like jiajun, weilong, hwee and jasmine tan etc..
really sweet.. just hopes everyone can remain close till the day we all graduate together and even after.. i felt quite sad and disappointed when i heard what happened during junqi and sandy's birthday..
anyway after acct lecture.. fabian went to eat the 2010 graduation ceremony's food at level2.. omg man! im speechless =x.. i was just standing there and waiting for my friend Angeline.. my poly classmate.. she graduated! also from BBMFT.. so cool... happy for her.. =)
Happy Graduation!
her friend help us took some photos and well i left to the kopitiam with fabian.. had my fav chicken rice and saw hazel there too.. said hi to her..
after lunch went to library.. fabian and i was shocked to see a couple hanky panky in there.. the girl was touching the guy and they are so close together haha duno doing wat.. watever..
i took a nap there before wen came to meet up with me.. then i went home to wash up and we headed down to Expo together for our first day work at Natas..
omg man the crowd hasnt that good and our booth was at a corner.. so theres not much traffic.. quite sian.. at least got wen and louis.. so not that bad.. imagine working alone like that i will rather do my own admin work or attend to my hamsters at home..
meh today suppose to work 4 - 10pm but louis suddenly called me and tell me he can work the whole day since his gf got plans and he cant meet her.. hais feel bad cos he's working alone without me and wen.. bah i think too much.. anyway in this case then maybe i should see if i can go trim my hair.. as tmr wont be free.. working morning shift..
sighs shall write till here for now..
Friday, August 27, 2010 - 3:14 AM
well day just ended again..
today was crazy.. well.. woke up at 11:30am when my class was at 12pm! omg.. rushed to school.. den waited for fabian and ivan outside LT (ps: ivan zai lor, pangseh me, i wait for him but when he reach he just go striaght into the LT! lol wthhh).. then i was watching at the 2010 RMIT graduates.. so cool.. wonder how would i be the day i graduate.. actually quite scary uh? cause by then i would be maybe 27 le? so old le.. goodness! age is catching up real soon.. and im feeling scared suddenly.. the fear and worries which i've always been holding on come closer each day.. cant wait to achieve my goals asap!
well during accounting everyone was kinda bored.. only afew was really paying attention lols! like jasmine, joel, fabian etc.. hahaha! hwee was tweeting and playing with ruler and stuff LOL!.. interesting topic today.. during break i went to grab some snack.. but well after i ate it my stomach started feeling abit weird.. i thought it was nothing..
but then during stats lecture at 3:30pm it start getting really painful and unbearable.. omg man i tried to tolerate it but couldn't take it after 30mins.. so i ran off leaving all my belonging behind.. went home and had diarrhea.. omg la! it was so painful until i was sweating.. dont know what i ate wrong the day before.. arghss!
after that i took a rest on my bed and fell asleep.. woke up at 6pm feeling better.. rushed to school to collect my bag and file which i left behind.. =( Fabian was suppose to pass it to me at 6:30pm but well class ended 15mins earlier and everyone had to rush off after class so only Adeline stayed and help me took my belongings despite the fact that her boyfriend was already waiting for her at Clementi MRT.. omg.. i feel so bad.. thanks! bestie :(.. i really appreciated it! carrying my heavy bag and file when u have ur own load to carry too..
after that i drove her to Clementi MRT to meet up with her boyfriend.. she was late for almost 1hr.. i felt really bad lor.. hopefully her boyfriend wont be angry..
after that i went home.. and wen arrived.. so i had my dinner and set off with wen to marsiling to deliver stock to willy.. after that found out that she hasn't ate so we went to railway hoping to find something to eat but omg Let's Clap and Ramen Ramen closed down!? wtf? i didnt even know when that happened.. knowing that we changed place and went to eat prata opposite beautyworld instead..
heard someone calling my name when i walking past then saw joel and kali there omg so qiao!.. anyway first time trying Sasuage + Cheese Prata.. not bad..
after that suppose to collect my uniform from Petopia but omg they already transfer all over to expo le.. so omg a wasted trip :x.. bahh! nvm at least i enjoy blasting my music and cruising down the road..
anyway i guess I'll stop here..
got to sleep!
class at 8:30am.. =(
tmr will be another long day! wish me luck and please diarrhea don't visit me again tmr!!
Thursday, August 26, 2010 - 3:34 AM
just finish my day not long ago..
today woke up but keep going back to sleep until around 12+pm.. after that went out for deliveries all the way with wen till around evening..
after that go for my canoeing land training.. clashes with one of the customer timing so wen went alone carrying super lots of things can! omg.. ask her take cab she dun want.. goshh.. cant imagine she deliver that alone to toa payoh.. 30L bedding with 2 full bags of stuffs.. omg man seriously.. pei fu.. felt so bad sia.. as i cant deliver due to training and she has to carry all the way down..
anyway after training, my fellow team mates asked for a ride so well since its along the way i ferry them to opposite beauty world for their dinner.. couldnt join them as im not free..
went home washed up and continue with deliveries at the east side.. gosh till now i still cant really understand the east side well.. all looks the same to me..
alright just a short summary for the day..
goodnight!
Tuesday, August 24, 2010 - 7:27 PM
just got back from sch..
the walk back was rather tiring.. especially when i was carrying a heavy mind.. thought about many things.. was rather disappointed with how certain things turned out..
nevertheless.. i'll try not to think about it.. i can hardly manage my own life now to even be bothered about things which i shouldn't even care.. priorities must be set right and time must be planned well.. i'll followed what people always said.. and what i used to believe.. 'true friends will stay with u no matter what happens..' though i've been proven wrong before but well i guess i've learnt not to care and feel already.. im really numbed.. through many bad experience i've this mindset that people wont be nice to u unless u've a certain value to them.. sighs its really sad when u see how realistic people can be..
well.. yst suppose to stay up late to finish my part but im tooo tired so in the end i fell asleep.. wen tried to give me morning calls.. i think i only kinda wokeup on the 7th call.. bah.. sorry but i really appreciated it..
dead tired i must say.. i was struggling to keep myself awake and prepare.. reached school at 12+pm.. and we had our group discussion till 3:15pm before we head for our stats lecture at 3:30pm.. omg man! im sooo not absorbing on what is he trying to say.. totally like stoned! Adeline also stoned haha! but at least she understood whats the concept of the topic was about.. she was nice enough to share with me and ask if i understood.. hahaa then i borrow her glasses as usual.. omg cos i cant see clearly.. die man! i think recently my eye sight kinda bad.. :(.. need to wear glasses le...
hate it when he keep repeating his question and do those irritating sounds.. omg! it gets annoying after sometime.. esp when u dont understand what hes trying to teach.. fish man..
hais tired..
going to rest...
lastly,
Happy Birthday Sandy~
hais so not looking forward to my own birthday.. dun wan to get anymore older =/
- 2:43 AM
just got back not long..
after class at 6.30pm went back to put my bag den when with wen to a job briefing as we're working this weekend for a dog hotel shop.. going to help them promote the sales of their dog boarding packages.. im really quite impressed with their system.. and also the prices does make me O_O.. but wow if i have the money i think i dont mind sending my dog for their 'hotel' services when i go for oversea trips.. cause the package is quite amazing.. cant believe animals are getting a better life then human nowadays haha!..
well after that went for delivery at pungol and went for our late dinner with wen and louis.. horfan is so yummy.. =) im so easily sastified uh.. sometimes i wonder why some pple can get sick of the same food.. i think i can eat the same food for the whole week also wont sian..
after that we discussed some biz ideas with louis and he shared some really creative info with us.. really made us think.. but wow my brain was almost like non functioning le at that time..
bahh! today i was late for OB for almost 1hr.. wth lol!! so paiseh lol!! i was feeling so dead today.. even peiyu also say she can see that my mood today is really low... im so amazed by her being so random today.. suddenly out of nothing she said that.. i was like huh can see meh?.. haha wonder how i looked from another person perspective..
okies gt to stop here.. i still got to work on my OB assignment.. tmr meeting up with the group to compile our work.. meehs..
i need to drink yang ming jiu sia haha..
Monday, August 23, 2010 - 1:27 AM
mehs.. very stoned..
too shag to even blog out wats going on the past few days..
basically went for SC camp got into my first choice SR! haha.. not bad everyone is really siao inside.. its some happening place for crazy people to find and meet people who think and behave alike haha.. quite a good and friendly environment..
hope things will stay that way and be happy all the way..
having some mixed thoughts about certain things.. but also cant really pin down what im actually thinking of.. this is the worst feeling.. lost in a daze..
alright writing till here for now..
so cool to have a dance team... :(
Friday, August 20, 2010 - 2:59 PM
sighs just wakeup.. but i wish i can just sleep forever..
something happened last night.. hais.. im very tired..
Thursday, August 19, 2010 - 2:22 AM
just ended my day..
today seemed to pass in a flash.. i can hardly recall wat i exactly did?.. just lots of non stop action.. pretty much stoned now.. and i cant think anymore.. lols.. shagged..
later accounting lecture is at 8.30am! omg i think im going to be late if i don't get some quality rest tonight.. please don't dream anymore ok? *poke head* hate the feeling of waking up when i had a dream.. it felt as if i never slept.. :(
tmr the kachingers are going to fly kite at marina barrage.. so cool right.. but sadly i couldn't go.. i only knew abt it when jiajun sms me.. apparently they added me into a discussion when i wasnt around at my computer and well the circuit trip crashed my computer so i didnt get to see what they were discussing? or whoever actually talked to me.. though i did had a glance and saw my msn window flashing when i walk pass my computer before the circuit trip.. but well didn't had the chance to open up the chat to see..
i have to commit to my business and my business partner.. as theres some meet ups which requires our presence and also deliveries to be made.. so i just have to give this outing a miss.. its impossible to be able to get everything in life.. sometimes we really need to make a choice.. because we can only be at one place at a time.. unless we can teleport or duplicate ourself haha..
anyway after tmr's afternoon plan at night i need to meet up with Team Honest for our Ben n Jerry outing! hahas! we got 3rd place and gotten Ben n Jerry's vouchers so well they planned to meet out tmr night to use up the voucher.. hmm it would be the first time im trying Ben n Jerry ice cream.. i wonder how great it would be.. is it really better then Haagen Dazs?
so well pretty much a packed day again tmr... pretty much pack everyday.. goodness.. i think im crazy.. but its ok ma i dun like to slack too much.. isnt it better to be doing something then wasting time? this is one of the break through im working for myself.. i want to be a productive person and not a slacker..
tmr dun have time to stay back long after accounting tmr for the meeting with my OB group mates for our group project.. guess i just have to check with them and know whats my part and do it afterwards..
alright going to shower and head to bed..
have to wakeup in like 5hrs+ time.. :(
tired..
Wednesday, August 18, 2010 - 3:05 AM
just a short entry before i head to bed..
recent thunderstorms seem to be causing afew circuit trips in my house.. wonder did it short circuit some of my house hold appliances.. i think my computer going to crash if this keeps happening..
today was pretty much an average day.. mhm enghwee sent me quite afew kpop songs.. haha! really awesome.. i like tara :) they're so cute and hot.. and their songs are catchy omg.. so feel like taking up dance class.. who can sign up for a beginner class with me! i've been thinking and saying abt it for afew years le lor.. argh!.. :(
anyway today's business stats was omg.. catch no ball man.. need to revise with my classmates real soon.. im so lost.. really bad at multi tasking lol.. i think im actually focusing more on my pet business then revising for my modules.. but im giving myself abit more time to sort things out..
mhm today rained heavily around 4pm.. so it was quite crappy.. weather nowadays is really horrible.. are humans taking a closer look at global warming now?.. or are they still burning forest and doing nothing about all the pollutions and damage they're doing to the earth each day.. sighs.. i really like the show "The day after tomorrow" think its really going to happen if we continue not to do anything..
anyway just checked my mail and saw the email about the upcoming sc initiation camp sent at midnight..
Dear all,
Firstly, a huge congratulations to all of you for being accepted into the RMIT student council!!!! To welcome all of you, there will be an INITIATION 2010 held for you guys/gals. Please take note of the following details:
Date of event: 21st-22nd of August 2010 (2D,1N) Reporting Date & time: 21st August, 2010(Sat) @ 12.30pm Reporting Place: SIM HQ LT3.14 Things to bring: a spare set of clothing, shoes, toiletries and slippers Attire: Comfortable attire for running around with and sneakers
Note: No white top for girls
Hope to see all of you on that day!!! :)
Cheers, Ali
im still abit surprised that i got selected.. bcos i tot i was quite crappy during the interview.. facing 6 interviewers.. heads of each department..
mhm.. quite alot of hidden thoughts but guess i'll blog longer next time..
alright time to sleep! tmr still got alot of work to do..
sweet dreams~
Tuesday, August 17, 2010 - 3:37 AM
the day has come to an end..
today during OB.. some of the topic made me felt quite emo.. especially the one regarding perceptions.. the way mike described kinda made me reflect on myself.. what happened so far in my life and how certain events changed my perception towards life at different stages?.. i remember how dreadful i was towards life at a point of my life.. esp during my most heart brokened period.. how i did things to hurt myself and totally changed my perception towards the word 'love'.. how my friends and people around think that im trying to seek attention etc etc.. it really sucked..
after that he talked about our individual essays.. omg man.. sounds like alot of us didn't really do it that well.. =( writing a essay really isn't easy.. with all the referencing and formats which we need to follow strictly on top of having good consistent content.. gosh...
the biggest challenge this degree is giving me would be all these insane theories and essays.. as my poly life was all mostly practical although i did learnt theory too but at least i wasn't require to write any essays nor conduct indept research on them..
tired.. but well the day ended off with some warmth.. thanks :)..
appreciate it alot..
so far only afew people can see thru the mask of mine.. wonder can they really see thru my emotions all the time..
i've been selected into Student Council so well.. this weekend has to attend a 2D1N initiation camp.. still hasn't receive news on the camp details yet though.. only know that it will be held this weekend.. but then will clash with my relative gathering on sat night.. sians.. see wat i can do..
okies.. im going to sleep.. tmr will be another long day..
sweet dreams..
Monday, August 16, 2010 - 12:11 AM
time will never wait for us..
feeling pretty messed up.. this weekend and the upcoming ones will be as busy..
20th aug got 2 birthday party clash.. wow.. duno how? lets see how i can split myself into 2 ya haha..
i've alot of hidden thoughts and words.. but i guess i shouldnt release them yet..
Saturday, August 14, 2010 - 4:25 PM
just finished my accounting test..
i so hate theories! omg why do they have to test so much on theories!! 6marks out of 20 on theories.. i just anyhow crap.. but definitely is 0 / 6 marks.. cos i never studied much on the theories and i couldn't memorize the definitions..
so dead.. thought i at least secured the remaining 14marks but then found out i had 2 mistakes out of which 1 is so dam careless!!... i know how to do but it wasn't asked on the question so i though we're not required to do it.. omg!! so stupid!! ahhh...
i think i will either just pass or fail by afew marks :(..
after this test i found out how off tracked i had been after the phuket trip..
so angry with myself..
i need to study more!.. seriously..
What am i doing!?!..
my life is so in a mess..
result from being over ambitious haha! and it prove that i can never be good at multi tasking..
i need to plan my time well.. if i want to be an all rounder i think im far from ready..
but i MUST NOT give up!!
Jiayou!!!!!
Tuesday, August 10, 2010 - 12:46 PM
woke up.. but i still not feeling that great.. i seem to have been affected by somethings.. but i cant pinpoint the exact source.. i just feel very tired all the time.. restless and unable have a good sleep...
i feel demoralized.. unmotivated and lost suddenly.. as much as i still try not to show them out.. i dun wan to go back to square 1.. NO!.. i must keep pushing myself...
seriously hate being emotionally affected.. cant seem to get anything done the way i wanted it to be.. feel sluggish and unaccomplished with work and studies when I'm suffering from mental tiredness..
i need a better system and time table for myself soon! or else i think i might break down..
i care too much on wat others thinks.. but im still a human.. i will get tired too.. hate this thing about myself.. why do i think so much..
probably too much emotional build up.. i hope the dark clouds will be gone soon..
- 12:11 AM
if tearing can ever solve anything i think i would had solve many problems before..
Monday, August 9, 2010 - 11:56 PM
when den i can save enough with my own hands and effort to buy all the stuffs i want :(..
- 11:10 PM
why do i feel this way deep down.. whats this emptiness...
- 4:57 PM
been ages since i last blogged..
well theres soooo much i like to say but well i think i'll just keep whatever happened in the recent months in my memories and not blog them out.. as i also dont know start from where..
i've been insanely busy.. but in a sadistic way i love what im doing.. although i struggle to keep things balance i think its impossible.. and somethings i must choose to let go.. there's a limit to how much we can achieve in a day.. trying to overcome that limit will just worn u out terribly.. at this critical age i think im mature enough to know whats right and whats not.. although emotions still blinds me sometimes.. i try not to let them effect me too much..
at the end of every hardwork.. its always best if there's this special someone.. but i think its pure fairytale because human are naturally selfish being...
Lastly i just wish to be given some peace when im sitting down resting.. i hate it when i feel complied to doing 'certain things' even when im tired.. its crap! There will be this thing bugging in my thoughts.. feel so restricted..
I've changed.. i can feel it.. im kinda not exactly the same as before..
I like who i am.. I hate how much i wasted my life before,
Finally i've widen my eye sight and able to see more things..
I will try my best to catch back all the lost time i've lost..
I think one of the things which i've lost long ago was the ability to smile from my heart..
