Wa sibei dulan! My mum wake me up say my dad drove my sis car out and stuck in the cashcard carpark because the card left 0.19cent. And I call over nicely to ask him check the other compartment cause I remember inside got another cash card then he fcking scold me and say if I'm there he will slap me. Wah knn fucking boil!!! Ccb!! I didn't even use that card as I always insert my own cash card when I drive the car.. My sister always use the car until no petrol and now even use up the cash card.. And when I take over I ALWAYS need to top up full for her.. Now ccb my dad still blame me say I use up the cash card when I didn't even touch it!! Knnccb think wat! I must go make sure everything is perfect when it's not even my own car!? It's not even my fault lor! U all bring me up with this type of mindset to worry about so many things.. To make sure I don't fuck up so I won't get a shit beating or yelling when I was a kid.. Till now I'm still carrying it.. It's fucking tiring to not be able to live for myself already.. Not like I didn't bothered abt the car.. I already very nice to help wash it when I'm free and maintaining the car le when I only get to use it when my sis isn't around.. now still come fuck me up over this.. I'm like getting 100% of this blame now.. WTF did I do lor!!! Omg I'm so fucking boiling!!!!!!!!! )3&/!@/@;$3!&/&@:)?7//1
fucking dulan..! Now he's back and yelling around.. I'm so pissed until I don't know how should I react to go down and face him.. Fucking hell!! Ccb lor not the first time! Everytime
y sis screw something up she just nice won't be home and I WILL be home! and I eat up all these SHIT! Really ruined my fucking day! Thought I can have some good rest till noon since tonight got to go comex and attend my friend birthday at dxo.. I feel like I lost all the mood now.. Thanks man! For such a nice wake up call! Tmd!!
Hate this shit!!!! If I have to hate my life I would had hated it for countless times already!!! Screw this!!
Omg I'm fucking mad!!!
Fuck !! Stop blaming shit on me!! Ccb.. :8:$-$:&/?:&:&,&
How much do u all know about me!!! Nothing! And neither do I know about u all! This is how fucking empty this home is!! All u all do is give birth to me and wan me to live up to ur expectations! Providing me food and basic needs.. I'm no different from a pet! I feel no love and concern from u all at all since young..
This is really like a hotel!
I wish I can vend out all these build up emotions..
I'm sick and tired of my life at point like this.....
Mum u only care about house cleanliness! And u just yell at us we mess up our place due to personal reason.. It's not even a fact that we don't want to keep our place clean.. But u nv bothered to find out wat is the cause.. Even when we are upset..
Dad u only bother providing a good life for us.. Does living under shelter and having food means alot? It's nothing without family warmth and concerns.. Even so u bring back money from work but we can't even buy wat I want.. I will always remember how bad I had to plead and end up crying over a hp replacement for my spoiled hp.. That was when I was in poly.. I give up asking for things in life because I had to beg to get it.. Even buying new clothes also cannot..
You know how sad it is to feel when u are sad and the person living under the same roof next to u doesn't even know or u can't even feel comfortable to share with them when they are actually the closes one to us.. How we have to cry alone in our room..
I hate being alone.. No one will understand the kind of shit I had.. People just judge from the outside..
Enough of my rants.. Sometimes I feel sad that blogging became the only way which I can express my inner feelings.. I envy those who can release it to their close friends or having friends who will know how to comfort u and not backstabbing in return giving comments like we are attention seeking or emo or watever rubbish they can come up with! Just because they don't feel wat we feel!
Arhhh!!! K enough I don't want to make this blog the same as my previous one.. Full of rants and sadness..
Bye.. I'll try to smile
