was talking to zn on msn.. hais.. reminds me of my module.. Organization Behaviour..
but our discussion was more about daily life events.. its really tiring and sickening to know how fake people can be.. and how realistic they can be..
i really hate those rich people who look down on people! when those money they spending aren't even earned by them! hais..
especially friends whom are trying to be close to u just because you're of certain "values" to them.. omg lor! don't you find its sickening? or is this normal?.. is there still anymore people whom are true and real out there?
sighs..
saddening..
sometimes don't you wonder what is your best friend or closest ones actually thinking? human can really be the most terrifying beings and not ghost..
anyway my perception towards friendship and relationship had changed through many bad experiences..
all i can say is.. i've had my fair share of pain, misery and lonely nights with tears in my eyes since dont know when..
if i can have the power to remove one of the feeling we've have to experience in life.. that would be heartache.. but is it also true that without heartache and pain we will never learn and grow? what a sick way for us to learn.. why cant it be the other way round that we learn when we are happy?..
some fact and logic are really senseless.. there seem to be no proper explanation and reasoning behind them..
trust and hope has been replace by fear and uncertainties.. to be safe i'll just treat the person the way he/she treats me.. i would not want to respect a person who doesn't even respect me..
though in life theres many times we have to to suck up to people like your superiors and bosses just to secure your rice bowl or have a better life.. i hope i wont have to be stuck in that kind of working environment.. yes its life! but fck i hate being fake and sucking up to people.. wat kind of shit behaviour is this seriously..
alright enough of emo crap..
have to sleep ler.. tmr still has to chiong stats revision..
goodnight <3
