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was syncing my iphone for new apps i downloaded.. while waiting i was actually tagging my friends on photos.. suddenly i realized i cant recall everyone's name.. omg.. this is really bad.. names which i used to know at my finger tips now i cant even recall.. some i had to even dig into my older photos and even to the state of checking mutual friends to find them...

this is a sign man.. seriously haha.. that i haven been hanging out with friends for a really long long time... and im getting so fat now!! omgg.. i like one of the pic taken when i was still in army around dec last last year.. i think i lost quite abit of weight then..

faints.. this is really bad.. im over committed and busy with business.. and it seem my life really revolves around it only nowadays.. sighs but how? is there a choice to really balance? i tried.. its not easy to cope.. and i also cant get my own life and let my partner handle stuff herself also.. and besides that she cant drive also so its impossible for her to work alone.. i tried to balance my life and work during first sem.. but it's quite hard to get things moving and it really shag myself out.. imagine after CCA and sch activities i've to rush back for deliveries.. and this cycle repeats almost everyday..

this sem im really less committed to my school activities and im feeling quite bad about it also.. im neglecting everything and everyone this year.. sighs.. but i have my reasons too.. not that i didnt tried.. though looking back i do miss the feeling of having a life.. all the sporting, laughing and stuffs..

customers require almost daily commitment and quick response.. no one will understand this unless they're working in customers related department or sales agent.. theres almost like no rest in this.. esp when they can contact u anytime even after working hours.. thou my partner's dealing with most of the CRM, i can also feel the tension when some of my 'own' customers seek advises and precise answers to their inquiries.. u have to understand your products and know whats good for the situation, all these require experiences and you cant anyhow bomb them a solution cause if it doesn't work you'll be held responsible, esp when it got to do with their pet's well being too..

sighs just too much to handle.. with all these never ending ongoing process sometimes its really hard to get a break or find time to hang out..

an example..

just randomly quote an amount.. let say u have 200 customers.. and out of these 200 maybe one day 10 decide to consult u for advise and products.. ok u'll be busy messaging or talking to them.. after that let say they need certain products by certain dates.. then you have to make arrangement with suppliers and also to get them send over u need a quota else u have to do self collect.. then u need to set a date for delivery.. and try to find one which all of them are fine with.. besides that what happen when they cancel their orders etc.. theres a lot to do..

besides all that, considering you're still a new business.. how are u going to attract new customers and fight with your competitors who has been dominating the market for many years? to attract more customers u have to have more product range also, and that brings in the suppliers part of the problem, where u need to find them, contact them, meet up, and its not a 100% thing that they will supply to u just becos you're interested to sell their product.. cause you're new and unknown to the public.. u wont be given much respect by them either..

theres alot of problems which u'll have to tackle.. anyone who has experience in business can share with me on how to manage and balance personal life and business.. sighs..



take a look at this video.. for just a bottle of water we probably wont think that the background process can be that complex.. sometimes we curse at the price of a bottle of water but sometimes we have to think of why its being priced that way too..

i learn this during my marketing class.. its really true behind every business they have their own set of complicated process and issues which we as consumers wont get to know..


jiayou pony for ur test tmr! hahas..

anyway finally solved the issue which i was cracking my brain over yst.. practically wasted 3hrs on it.. didn't expect the solution to be so simple.. but well coding errors are always a tough nut to debug.. bahh..

anyway here's basically a screenshot of the upcoming change.. not sure when the official launch of the new theme would be.. but will discuss with partner and see how it goes.. hopefully wont be too long haha! but well still got alot of imaging work to do and editing..



well today (yesterday) i woke up really late.. really feel extremely lethargic lately.. dont have mood for anything..

was staying home whole day doing research for biz's web.. find it too plain and some competitors are actually using the same platform as us! so quite sian.. really eager to be indifferent from them.. spent many hours searching and finding alternatives till i almost go mad from all the text and information.. browser bar was basically flooded with over 10 windows and running..

anyway thank goodness i stumbled across one source around evening and after discussing with partner we kinda agree that it's pretty good.. though theres still afew others which i like too.. but bahh.. i just decided on this one for now as i find the theme and layout appealing.. im quite a perfectionist so basically when it come to choices im always having headache.. hate it...

during evening xinyi came down with weiting and wenhui to purchase hamster food supplies and bedding from me.. so we had a little chat till around 8+pm they left to eat at ecp.. after that i had my dinner and continue working on the website..

Im sorry about wat happened to weiting omg feel sorry for her.. gosh.. never expected that.. not going to disclose what exactly happened thou..

after that went to meet them again at marina barrage.. reach there at around 12:30am.. wow! i almost lost my way becos i googled map the exit on the wrong side of AYE.. bahh.. seldom go to such places so im really quite clueless on the direction..

anyway we just talked rubbish there.. come to realize it had been really LONG since i chill out.. i've been like 24/7 thinking about biz all these months.. things are kinda stressful this time as we're launching many new stuffs and im expecting certain targets and results to be met.. but its hard to cope and balance seriously.. studies are pretty much messed up this sem..

i think i need to really chill more and spend more time with friends.. thou im always running low on time and energy.. i just need to find a way for the best?..

sometimes chilling does really help..


Guess the out break period is over.. I had plenty of rest the last few days.. Things are settled now.. Just have to go slow and well for now focus more on the upcoming exams.. After that during the holidays I will continue to work something out for moo moo.. I will make this business stands out one day from all the usual pet shops out there.. Well i can't be 100% but at least with dreams come hope!! This business is like my wife since last year.. And it's almost been a year since I started towards my own dreams.. Theres been many issues and set backs but im glad till now things are still moving.. Thanks to my partner too for dealing much on the PR side which im still not that great at.. Since im not that good at multi tasking i can only focus on one area at once.. Let's see where this dream will led me to.. The world of business is really competitive nowadays.. In time when moo moo is more stable I think I'll go try up part time office life for a period if possible to attain somemore valuable experience.. There's alot of things which I realize I started out too late... So I'm really running against time.. In return it actually wore me out faster and created more stress and sparks in the process.. Hope my partner can understand and together we work out a great plan.. I can do it! No matter who's out there laughing or looking down on me.. I must believe in myself! Suppose to be sleeping now but my mind's too active to sleep.. Gosh.. Can hear joggie drinking water from my room.. Haha so funny.. Kk back to trying to sleep! Goodnight!


About time for a break down.. 真的很难受。。。我好象失去了自己。。


Actually I'm starting to feel better but when I read the email I start to feel frustrated.. You are always right and I'm always wrong.. Whatever I feel is always wrong it seems.. Like i have a choice to choose to feel another way and I chose to feel the negative side.. We just don't understand each other point of view well enough or I'm too sensitive or ur not sensitive enough to why I'm reacting the way I did.. There's alot I can say but it will just led to bigger arguements and debates so I'm choosing to ignore it.. I don't wish to care or know.. And u can also choose to ignore it or u can continue to rub salt on it if u want to.. Nevertheless I said I don't wish to care so much already.. So ya u can see the difference soon.. I wont be stressing u about new stuffs or reminding u about things and get a scolding from u for reminding.. Its also time for us to focus on our upcoming exams.. Especially me.. Don't even think I can make it through this time.. Sometimes I wonder why am I putting so much effort to think about improving our biz.. It seem so one sided sometimes when u don't bother about my ideas or doesn't take them seriously.. Sometimes there are certain things u do that doesn't really prove the fact that u said u did it for me.. Or perhaps it's just a difference perspective.. To me if I want to do certain things for the person I won't question it and then later claims that I was doing it for her.. When initially u were still wondering if u wants to.. And there are times when u don't share enough to let me understand that u did think for me before u execute certain plans or accept any orders.. Most of the time I'm just being told to do things without a chance to reject.. I could say no but then ur tone would change as experienced before.. Anyway this is my blog so I just want to vent it here since whenever I voice out to u we will deffinitely end up in a arguement.. I don't want to bring up furthermore things becos everything will just be said to be my fault and u'll show me that face and so would I and the cycle repeats.. In conclusion.. U always have all the perfect reason to why u have the right to be angry or why I should be in the wrong.. And I'm tired to prove my own stand.. I'll just accept whatever it is and try to be cool about it... I was never good with words so well don't use words against me.. I don't want and don't wish to argue..


不喜欢这种感觉！ 当你要我做事时你什么都不管。。
但是，如果我对你这样你就对我不爽！。。

just becos of something last min you can suddenly bomb my hp.. and make sure im able to be there for it.. its always during this kinda situation where u wont really think about how i would feel... and i would feel like you just throw all the task to me to handle.. and it must be like the way u wanted it to.. else u will question me later why this and that.. why i do this instead of that etc...

and when u need me during such times den u start talking to me in nicer tone and such..

but why when i talk to u about business in similar before u wont react the same.. now its like wtf?.. dont know i just dont really feel good about this kinda situation whenever it happens..

u have something on then u cant make it.. then me leh.....

haiz.. nvm la.. anyway i also dont want to call the shots.. already said i dont feel like caring much.. also tired of expressing myself and end up in a debate or quarrel with u.....

need some peace..........


Since you are so much more experienced then me and u like to think from your own perspective so much without considering mine. This time I am really giving up.. I won't be bothered to do anything already.. Yes I will be breaking my own bowl also.. But what's the point.. I'm sick of all these business issues and having to argue my way through trying to explain my point of view all the time... Perhaps this way it will be better! U wan ur own life so do I.. You think I enjoy cracking my brains for ideas and marketing to attract more customers and all the other stuffs? To u these may not be significant now.. But when it works I also don't feel u saying that my idea worked.. I'm just finding trouble and stress for myself.. Our common goal and dream seem to be drifting away.. I can no longer feel that I have someone to discuss ideas with.. Forget it..! I gave up so much of my time which I could spent with my friends and doing other things I like for what.. I made so many of my friends unhappy with me and call me Mia and drifted away from me.. For what??? For the common goal I onces believed in.. Which requires all these commitment to get there!! Time is running out and I'm tired of running against it.. Restless night for months.. In return to get all these arguements and unhappiness!


有时候真的觉得自己快要受不了了。。。