Actually I'm starting to feel better but when I read the email I start to feel frustrated..
You are always right and I'm always wrong.. Whatever I feel is always wrong it seems.. Like i have a choice to choose to feel another way and I chose to feel the negative side..
We just don't understand each other point of view well enough or I'm too sensitive or ur not sensitive enough to why I'm reacting the way I did..
There's alot I can say but it will just led to bigger arguements and debates so I'm choosing to ignore it..
I don't wish to care or know.. And u can also choose to ignore it or u can continue to rub salt on it if u want to..
Nevertheless I said I don't wish to care so much already.. So ya u can see the difference soon.. I wont be stressing u about new stuffs or reminding u about things and get a scolding from u for reminding.. Its also time for us to focus on our upcoming exams.. Especially me.. Don't even think I can make it through this time.. Sometimes I wonder why am I putting so much effort to think about improving our biz.. It seem so one sided sometimes when u don't bother about my ideas or doesn't take them seriously..
Sometimes there are certain things u do that doesn't really prove the fact that u said u did it for me.. Or perhaps it's just a difference perspective.. To me if I want to do certain things for the person I won't question it and then later claims that I was doing it for her.. When initially u were still wondering if u wants to..
And there are times when u don't share enough to let me understand that u did think for me before u execute certain plans or accept any orders.. Most of the time I'm just being told to do things without a chance to reject.. I could say no but then ur tone would change as experienced before..
Anyway this is my blog so I just want to vent it here since whenever I voice out to u we will deffinitely end up in a arguement.. I don't want to bring up furthermore things becos everything will just be said to be my fault and u'll show me that face and so would I and the cycle repeats..
In conclusion.. U always have all the perfect reason to why u have the right to be angry or why I should be in the wrong.. And I'm tired to prove my own stand.. I'll just accept whatever it is and try to be cool about it... I was never good with words so well don't use words against me.. I don't want and don't wish to argue..
