its freaking annoying when im sick im still thinking about all these shit..
my trust and patience towards you had reach a limit.. probably all the basic things that i use to do is just so stupid to avoid quarrelling and conflict with your perception.. i start to feel like im a big fool.. fyi i choose business over my academic and social activities is because i respect you and believe that it's my part to share the load.. else why should i give up my interest for you and fit into your requirement and schedule list all the time, instead of asking you to slot into mine huh.. whenever u plan something you already think and assume that i will be available for sure..
today is ridiculous.. driving the whole Singapore from 3 to 10pm? you think it's convenient in your way doesn't mean they are all really that near.. you really think it's not tiring? and that they are all "just that close by each other" let me try that on you one day! you just jolly well pack and load the things and then i just get up and drive.. without even asking me.. i always keep quiet so u think im fine with it yea? last time not so bad i close one eye just do it.. now.. u really think im your slave! always calling the shot very fun right!
why am i being manipulated by you?
mind you when you say that i hasn't been contributing.. if not because of me persisting on my ways and ideas, arguing against your traditional thinking where do you think we would stand now? just because now you're on the ball doesn't mean anything much.. you can choose when you want to be hardcore and want it your way.. please do not forget that last time who was the one on the ball, committed and excited about the future.. now u expect me on be on your side as well and when im not, you jolly well drag in someone else into the picture to help you.. makes me feel like a piece of trash that can be easily replaced.. no matter what i believe i've given you the basic respect of a partner since the start till now.. if you think i did not then please STATE and tell me in my face! if you like to do such act i can also do it my way.. if you don't like it then its your problem..
it's not fair to anyone in a business to weight each individual commitment.. you are the front line warrior doing sales doesn't mean the one behind isn't doing anything to begin with.. if we were to swap place i'll jolly well take it and let you experience it yourself how tiring is my end as well.. please note that what i do doesn't reflect on what you saw only.. my sacrifice for this business is definitely not lower then whatever you've done! if i were to take your part as well then u think what? i superman? wont be tired? i believe i've been rather understanding towards you until recently..
i seriously feel like trying to be a sadist and get my own sales and just dump it to you with a list of deliveries and ask you to carry it out..
and many things you just want to do it your way, if you want to do it that way and you expect me to know certain things? if im to try all that stun on you i bet you wont feel good either.. but fear not i will start to let you have a taste of your own treatment soon..
seriously try me.. i've always keep quiet about alot of things and you just take them for granted.. that doesn't mean you can climb on top of my head and shit.. if you want to talk about respect you are the one who hasn't been giving me mine! not happy come confront me! im writing it out here cause its fucking annoying in my brain now when im still having fever and have to be pissed off!
i've enough of all your honey bees.. one after another.. its so annoying to hear your phone keep beeping with all that.. and talking to them with that soft tone like dont know what when im around.. if you dont have the basic respect of even silencing it or what.. u said i didnt care abt how u feel.. then do u even respect mine to begin with? im just like a puppet and i hate to be dominated and called around.. just because i've the freedom and ability to drive and to be anywhere doesn't mean i have to be there because you're bored and cause you can't come out.. or is it because no one is available to meet you at that point of time?
