Dear Diary,
Been such a long time since i sat down and wrote about my life.
Listening to this song introduced to me by someone :) Well i must say i still love eurodance/techno/vocal trance.. never fail to put me in a state of trance and self reflection about my life..
I cant believe that in a blink of an eye it's been like a year plus since i last updated..
Tons of things happened in my life, mistakes, regrets, self pity, smashed ego/pride and many more.. alot of heartaches events.. but this week i woke up from it.. people really grow through hardships and life experiences.. i did alot of self reflection and thinking..
cant say that im writing with a clear mind now but at least i got this invisible force pushing me and letting me see things clearer now..
As a virgo, i really held on to things too tight.. not that im a horoscope freak but.. i must say that my natural character really matches it at least 90%.. being perfectionist and emotional as my biggest flaws..
looking back at my previous post i can see that i tried so hard before to get myself somewhere but i fell back to square zero when i was struck with emotional issues.. i locked myself up again and cut off social interaction.. perhaps thats a self defense mechanism? when someone just could'nt know how to react/face the real world they choose to avoid/divert/detour? I'm being weak this way i know and i'm struggling to face and improve this area.
